“ideal” weight

So today the Wii Fit gave me my ideal weight. Through all of my ups and downs with my weight over the years, I have long said I just wanted someone to give me a number (any number) of what my “ideal” weight should be and I would strive for that. Everyone has an opinion of what is a good look and what isn’t: too skinny/too fat; I wanted a concrete number, not an opinion.

I didn’t want to live in the gray area any longer, the gray area where I think I look good and yet people give me shit about shopping in the toddler area and still someone else has the balls to ask me to my face, if I used to be skinny before having my son. I wanted to have a comeback of,  “I am at my IDEAL weight thank you very fucking much” for any and all comments.

And today when I finally got that number… I was disheartened. Not because I don’t weigh it, or would have to lose weight to get to it, but because that number? My ideal number? Is only 4 pounds less than what I weighed when I gave birth to my son. So my ideal weight is PREGNANT WITH ANOTHER PERSON? Are you effing kidding me?  From this point, I would have to GAIN over 22lbs to get to my “ideal” weight. I was almost ideal before I started taking the Topamax but even then I was still under this weight.

It bases the “ideal” on a BMI of 22 which supposedly the BMI where you have the least chance of being sick and are least susceptible to illness. Now I know this is just game and not a doctor telling me this but still, it was FINALLY a number… and I’m not happy.

Maybe I should listen to Queen Latifah and just be a size happier or was that a size healthier?

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