I’m not sure how I expected to feel exactly but “fine” or “okay” are the first two words that come to mind so I guess some variant on that. And honestly, I’m not sure why I thought I’d be largely unphased by this whole thing but when Jennie called me to discuss the indefinite closure of both Style Lush and Food Lush I didn’t really think about *my* part in it all. I worried about how the writers might feel, how our readers might feel, how Jennie was struggling with her decision. I focused on next steps and how things were going to be handled, as I do.
I never thought about what the actual moment would feel like when I wrote my last post. I have been with both of these blogs since their inception and even though I wrote my final post for Food Lush on Monday, it didn’t really register with me even then, I think because I had my Style Lush post to write last night. Many people have been sad since the announcement but for me, I have been focused on next steps, on the process and now that the actuality is staring me in the face, I can finally process.
Friday is the last day and Friday’s posts are mine to edit. From first day to last day…it makes me sad, but also proud that I saw it through from start to finish. I’m feeling a hole already and maybe it will mean that I blog here more…I am already doing projects around my house…maybe it will mean that I blog more on my photography site, who knows, what I do know is that I am thankful for the connections I have made and the people I can’t do without. Even without those sites these things will not change.
Long live the lushes