April 12th, 2014

I still love my yoga studio. I still love going to restorative yoga. I enjoyed my beginner workshop and I’m sad it’s over. What I REALLY LOVE however? Chakra Yoga + meditation. I look forward to this class EVERY WEEK. It honestly gets me through every single week and it sounds completely twee but I feel different, better inside, since taking this class.

If you had asked me after the first class if I loved it, my answer would’ve not been so glowing. That first class was so hard. SO HARD. Holding a forward bend in yin was impossible for me. I was overcome with the feeling of falling and my muscles just essentially couldn’t let go enough to allow the posture to settle into my bones. My previous injuries and misalignments have lead to weak muscles and overcompensating muscles just to keep me going. My instructor and I had a long talk after class where I explained what was going on and she really listened and understood. She also added brought up what trauma does to our bodies and how that sort of thing plays out in the future with a deep yin practice. I asked if she felt I could do this and she seemed shocked I would think I couldn’t, even with what I felt was a dismal showing in the very first posture of class.

So I went the next week and the week after and so on. We’ve moved from Root Chakra to Sacral Chakra to Solar Plexus Chakra to Heart and here is where I am going to pause a moment. Each Chakra comes with an explanation of the Chakra and how it correlates to what goes on in our bodies and minds. To do the work required to unlock any blockage and get that wheel (they are wheels of energy) flowing, open and in alignment with all the others, you have to understand what you are holding there. So when Heart Chakra happened to fall right after the stuff that is in the protected posts? Well I was crying in class. Specifically when we did this mudra

Courthouse Butte with bonus yoga mudra

The left hand indicates forgiveness and the right dispelling fear and hello waterworks. My instructor was looking straight at me when I started to cry and she had us close our eyes and spoke some very meaningful words about fear and focusing our breath into that hand, holding it strong in spite of the tremble we could surely feel, keeping it pressing open with intention. It was so great, SHE is so great.

Thursday night was Throat Chakra after a missed week (class was cancelled for a week for some reason) and I brought my instructor a rock from Sedona. I worried she might think it was lame but I have a rock from Sedona right on my computer desk here and when we were hiking I was moved to grab one for her. I also brought the photo above with me to show her that I did the mudra in a spiritual place, that it resonated so deeply with me. I wasn’t sure I was going to show her but I had it just in case. When I handed her the rock she was so surprised and touched that I explained I did the mudra and I had my husband take a photo for me and that I brought it too. She then flipped out over the photo so much that I gave it to her and she had me sign the back. My other instructor was there (the one who teaches restorative) and they went on and on about reaching someone and how great that was. It was after that she told me she’s from Arizona. Y’ALL COME ON.

Could it BE any more perfect than that?

April 9th, 2014

First, thank you so much for your kindness and support on my personal struggles. I appreciate everyone who has reached out to me and everyone who has just taken the time to read what I am going through, it really means a lot to know I am not alone.

Second, I miss sharing things with y’all, so I’m going to try and be in this space more often. I thought I’d work on bringing back my ode to virtual (or real depending) shopping: Wanting Wednesdays

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Rune Sword Leggings via Kat Von D’s store Wonderland. I am a huge nerd but I really want these for yoga, possibly the Hocus Pocus pair or the Moon Child pair (although with the Moon Child I just hear Chris Cornell in my head on repeat, not necessarily a bad thing).

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Juliette Blouse also via Kat Von D’s store Wonderland. I really want this to wear with a pencil skirt. That collar just kills me.

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China Knuckles also via Kat Von D’s store Wonderland. Look, I’m trying not to just link EVERYTHING I love from her store but COME ON, brass knuckles made from floral china?! One of the suggested uses is NAPKIN RINGS and OMFG I NEED THESE (but in blue since they’d go better with my chairs…or maybe pink for outside and blue for inside? DO WANT).

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Brogamats has yoga mat bags and yoga mats for dudes or chicks who just appreciate a yoga mat bag that looks like a burrito, aka me.

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Miz Mooz Yogi in black I need black wedges. I’m not sure if these are *the* black wedges but I have a few pairs of Miz Mooz already and I love them.

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Cross Back Romper I hate the name of this one but I’d really like a black jumpsuit.

Willy and I watched American Hustle the other night (SO LONG. JUST GET TO THE CON ALREADY FTLOG) and man I have a special place in my heart for 70′s fashion, not cut down to the navel, threat of seeing Amy’s boobs at any second fashion, but other things: giant sunglasses, jumpsuits, a-line long skirts, platforms, flare jeans, fringe, feathers.

April 5th, 2014

The mountains make me happy. Any mountains, all mountains, but there is something special about the smell of the desert of Arizona. Whenever I am stressed or overwhelmed or unhappy, I need to get my feet in the soil, set my eyes on the mountains and just breathe for a while.

We lucked into a decent standby situation and hopped on a flight with not even 48 hours notice this past weekend.













It was good to be home.

April 3rd, 2014

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March 6th, 2014

Since I last mentioned starting out in my journey with yoga, I’ve completed my 3 “new” classes at the intro rate. I took two restorative classes and one Candlelight Vin Zen class which combines a vinyasa class with some restorative poses at the end. I was not prepared for the speed at which the vinyasa flowed, but with the exception of Half Moon Pose, I mainly was able to hold my own and at least attempt everything. Half Moon was not only difficult from a balance point but also because it stirred up all the concrete in my sinuses and after the second or third forward rotation, I thought I might vomit from the pressure in my face. I gave up at that point and just retreated into Childs Pose. After that experience I thought I should try a class they offer called Gentle Yoga which has a lot more modifications for damaged people such as myself.

In Gentle, my form was corrected more than once and I made the decision that I should start over with a beginner’s workshop that was coming up. I have done yoga many times but not really since the injuries that have pulled my right side so far out of alignment and my muscles have compensated far more than I thought. I know I am out of whack, I can feel it every day, but I didn’t really do the mental math of how much that would affect how my hip would be turned doing a hamstring stretch or how tight EVERYTHING (my hamstrings ARE A JOKE) is just to try and carry my frame. All of this is explained in the fact that I am in pain every day and have been for well over a year, even when I was in physical therapy, it never went fully away. I’m just so used to it now that I don’t consider what it does to my abilities.

Tuesday was the first beginner’s class and our instructor gave a great tip on how to ground your palms for better support and taking the weight off the wrists. I was very mindful of the corrections I had received on my form for downward dog previously and am hopeful I kept that line better. We practiced easy three part breath and some basic forms. I asked for a modification in beginning chaturangas as my shoulder still locks when I try to lower myself through to plank. I don’t have a fluidity of motion because I can’t properly support myself. We learned about the terms for things and the purpose of doing yoga in the first place.

I’m adjusting to different teaching styles and methods. It’s easiest for me when they are similar either in cadence, voice, methodology or flow. I need some similarity to grasp at so I can be comfortable and pay better attention, otherwise I am thrown off and can’t relax. So I need to get myself to focus on my breathing and just try without being so focused on nerves or trying to do things “right”. Being more in the room is one of my struggles as things haven’t just come as easily to me as before I was injured. And of course being more in that room in the midst of the drama shit storm we live in, is one of the reasons I am going.

Tonight I signed up for a Chakra + Meditation class and I am really excited about it. I love that this studio has so many options and so many ways to find your own path. They have a class that combines acupuncture and yoga which I likely will try in April. Even though I mess up constantly or can’t do things the way I wish I would, I still look forward to going every week, that means I’m in the right place, I just have to get ME into the right place.

February 17th, 2014

A’Dell does these regularly and I thought it might be a good way to just toss some things down and get them out there.

1. My Nutribullet is still going strong. I drink a smoothie every morning for breakfast. I have even made one on a day when I had brunch plans with friends and just had something smaller to eat when meeting up with them. I haven’t quite figured out how I will deal with being away from home, I guess Jamba Juice or Smoothie King. I pretty much make a different one every day and rarely stick to a recipe (even though I was so excited to have two different recipe books with my set) I like trying new flavors and combinations and finding out what works for us. So far I have learned that avocado is a total no go for me and that tangerine is a total no go for Willy. Neither of us likes a full berry smoothie. I also prefer alternating green smoothies with other veg smoothies (like carrot) and I alternate my greens so my body gets different nutrients.

2. I am working on getting rid of any cheap or uncomfortable shoes in my wardrobe and replacing them with nicer, well made, comfortable shoes. I recently purchased another pair of Clarks (on sale and as part of a buy one get one a % off deal, my husband bought some new shoes) and Jennie was clearing out her closet so I snagged a pair of coral heels from her.

3. We recently also upgraded our dining room chairs from some cheapie pine Ikea chairs (that were breaking) to some fancy cushioned chairs from World Market. I got three of them 50% off because a store location was closing and liquidating their merchandise and the 4th 35% off during a furniture sale.

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4. I decided to try getting back into some sort of exercise and thought that yoga might be the best fit for me. In my area, the options for true studios are sadly lacking but there was a warm/hot studio offering an intro class and I jumped on it. Of course this meant a whole lot of fretting about yoga clothes (pants specifically, NO SEE THROUGH NO CAMEL TOE) mat, towel, etc. I have identified this lovely part of my personality where whenever I am nervous about a situation I want all of my externals to be just so: the right clothes, the right equipment. It’s like having the right backpack and pencil case in grade school (which I never had btw and even worse than that but that’s a different story) so you don’t have a reason to be picked on? Yeah. Good times. I was also really worried about sweating as profusely as I do (hey hot flashes, you suck) in a hot room and slipping, what I should have been worried about is the fact that my collarbone and back rib dislocation issues have rendered me completely without upper body strength or range of motion. In certain poses my shoulders just lock and I am totally fucked. I can’t lower myself to the mat and at one point I actually just fell onto my stomach. Not a huge deal (not like it was a long fall) but definitely a pain and not one I was prepared for. I was aware enough that it might be an issue that I let the instructor know I’d be weak, I just had no idea that it just wouldn’t happen at all. Fortunately there were only two of us in class, unfortunately it seems this studio is a lot over my head and when the instructor was trying to suggest classes for me to try, she struggled. They, from what I gather, seem very power yoga focused and while she said I totally should come to whatever I want and modify at will, it was pretty obvious that I wouldn’t be able to keep up with how their classes flow. The experience was pretty confusing for me. I could do pigeon and warrior and any pose that had to do with hips or legs without issue (except hamstrings, hello you tight little bastards) but upper body was a wreck. I could handle the heat far better than I expected and yet overall I was just wrong. I was more than a little let down. I had planned in my head that this was going to be a niche I could slot myself into. I don’t have mountains to hike here (my #1 exercise love) and I need to do something. I debated trying the free yoga class that Lulu offers on Sundays but was really unsure about it. Natalie encouraged me to try on twitter and then Sarah texted me with an offer to chat about everything. We had a very long conversation and I showed her another studio I was considering that offered a restorative class. It is much farther for me to drive but the website was nice (we both choose businesses this way) and calm. With her encouragement & discussion, my husband’s encouragement and some more hemming and hawing I finally decided to go for it and took the class there. It was AMAZING. Worlds different than the first place. Even though they both are in a strip center and the second place is in a much more sketch area of town it was so much nicer inside. Calm, spa like.

I am so glad I tried again. My plan now is to try out two more classes (I bought a 3 for $20 with them) and then probably sign up for their 4 week beginner workshop. I likely will take the restorative every sunday regardless because it was just good for my soul.

5. So, what did I buy for yoga? I bought Old Navy cross front yoga capris in black, C9 by Champion cami tank in black (which is great if you are less well endowed in the breasticle region), Zulu Atlas Beverage Bottle in Pink (which I love because it’s glass, dishwasher safe and you can lock the lid), The Mat in a turquoise color which isn’t listed online, The (Small) Towel in fossil, Bang Buster in black and a carrying strap by Gaiam in a light turquoise which I can also use as a stretching strap in class. I also bought an additional sports bra and tank and will grab another pair of yoga pants while they are on sale (probably another of the top I linked while they are on clearance as well. It’s nice to only have to pull on one piece)

6. We have taken to calling Sprog and the BFF (who shall henceforth be called Bubbles on this site) the hoopty patrol as their cars are perpetually breaking down. One or the other is ALWAYS without a car and sometimes (more often than not lately) it’s both. At this point it would seem that Sprog’s transmission is on a downward spiral from whence there is no return and we are going to have to help him get a real car with a car payment. We didn’t want to do this as we didn’t want him to feel locked into working and had hoped he would return to school but either way he’s going to need something reliable because otherwise WE are tied to being here waiting to go rescue them from wherever they get stranded next time. WE feel like WE can’t go out of town or do fun things because they need to be ferried to job or school. NOT COOL. So, discussions are happening, decisions are having to be made and yo, it sucks.

7. Some weird health stuff is going on still/again/forever…but we’ve been dealing with crisis of car and Sprog mode around here so soon I’ll be making appointments and looking to get some answers. I guess we’ll see.

January 9th, 2014

After the hospital stay and follow-up with my doctor, I have started B12 shots every two weeks. I also decided that maybe I needed to try and do something different in the kitchen to get some more nutrients in my (still wonky) system. I wait up late for Sprog, every week, and one of these occasions lead me to catching an infomercial about The Nutribullet.

I had been considering a juicer but the fact of the matter is that I don’t like juice. I have never been a person that sits down with their morning OJ. If it’s not water or tea it’s got to have alcohol in it for me to drink it. It’s got to have STUFF. Otherwise, it gets overly saccharine tasting after like two sips and I hate the after taste it leaves behind and V8? That shit has an entire salt lick in it, even the low sodium versions (which is fine because EWW).

I’ve also done smoothies before but here we end up with my apparently weird drinking thing, too thick. I’m like the Goldilocks of beverages. The overly enthusiastic dude was spewing his spiel but I was watching the concoctions. I noticed they were made with water. I saw the consistency when slid across the counter to the “audience” or poured into a glass and they looked thin…but not juice thin. Hmm.

I asked on twitter if anyone had thoughts and one person responded with positive feedback.

I looked up prices.

Costco (ALWAYS. I LOVE YOU COSTCO) had a 14 piece kit for $99 online but it was pointed out on twitter that Bed, Bath and Beyond probably had a 20% off to use. Which is a valid point and BB&B had the same price but a smaller package because not only was it 14 piece vs 12 but the 14 piece didn’t count an additional cookbook. So we decided to head to Costco and take a look in person and what do you know, our store had it for $89.94 plus we get money back on our Costco Amex. Sold.

I have had a smoothie for breakfast everyday since, plus a Night Cap smoothie before bed the night we got it.

This is the first breakfast smoothie I made. It was a bit more green than I was ready for but I think that’s because I added arugula. I’ve had baby kale in them almost every day since and it hasn’t been as noticeable as this day.
Spinach, kale, arugula, cara cara orange, pineapple, mango, date, lemon, milled flax, raw honey, ginger and almond milk

Kale, blackberries, raspberries, cara cara orange, lemon Noosa yogurt, milled flax and vanilla rose almond water

Pumpkin puree, carrot, banana, half a cara cara orange, chai concentrate, ginger, vanilla extract, nutmeg, cinnamon, cashews, pumpkin seeds, ice and a splash of almond milk

Frozen blueberries, baby kale, blueberry Noosa yogurt, half a cara cara orange, milled flax, chia seeds, vanilla rose almond water and almond milk

I make the breakfast smoothies in the large cup which leaves some leftover for Willy to have as a snack when he gets home from work. It’s easy, fast and not a huge pain in the butt to clean. I like varying them every day to change up nutrients and adding the yogurt helps keep good bacteria in my gut. I also like that it doesn’t take up huge amounts of counter space.

Hopefully the GI specialist will agree with the choice because I’ve been really happy with the addition to my diet.

Ideally I’d get Sprog on board with drinking them because I could add some protein powders (he desperately wants to gain weight) and get some good nutrition into that kid, he eats horribly.

January 8th, 2014

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January 4th, 2014

My Old Navy order arrived this morning and I thought I’d share what I purchased with y’all.

Old Navy was having a 60% off sale online plus free shipping over $50 AND THEN addtl 15% off so I decided to use some Christmas cash and grab some stuff. Kroger had a deal where you would save $10 on any two Old Navy gift cards so I asked Willy to grab two $25 gift cards for me. Total cost=$40. I was determined I wasn’t going to spend A DIME over the face value of the gift cards. Period.

It took some doing, let me tell you. I whisked things in and out of that cart over and over until I got it right but in the end, my total was $49.20, which I really only paid $40 for and that makes my giddy bargain shoppers heart just scream with glee.

Here’s what I bought

Button Down Chiffon Dress in Snake I got mine in the tall but it’s currently only avail in petites. I have another dress like this in navy blue polka dot and I love it. The built in slip is comfortable and covers. I love that the tall is right above knee length so I feel comfortable wearing it with or without tights which means it will be wearable for several seasons.


Terry Fleece Dolman Sleeve Dress this is a dress MADE OF PAJAMAS. IT’S THE BEST THING EVER. I am so excited about it.


Terry Fleece Raglan Tops Marshmallow White I am a sucker for a cute sweatshirt


Embellished Cardi Warm Polka Dot it’s hard to see in the photo but the dots are metallic copper.

So that’s the online order. I also ran in-store and grabbed a pair of Rock Star jeans because they were on sale for $9


Rockstar Coated Super Skinny In The Navy

Not a bad little haul for around $50 total! I still have some cash and a Target gift card to spend, plus my free Sephora birthday gift, a $10 World Market gift and I’m sure something from Starbucks will show up soon.

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